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&
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all
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ME
&
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me there,
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may god
so keep
me
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ME
in
the
thIng
I embrace
the shadow
that is me
here i commit
radical trans
paren
(sEE)
nOw
thAt
(yOu)
sEE
me
I
wOn’t
BE
the
sAme
nOw
thAt
(yOu)
fEEl
me
hEAr
(yOu)
sAy
m
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nA
ME
when
.i say
allison
you* say
sylvia
.*
when
*you say
i lOve
i. say
(yOu)
*.
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pAnIc
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thAt
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sOUl
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(nOw)
.
all there
(:)
2
write
o beloved god on high
love below here i am
meet me in the middle
where i dwell
though i move ever on
i dare to glance behind
what is left in my wake
aware at each moment
of my terrible(fic) purpose
how many motions
made to keep me
from that final goal
o beloved o my soul
i found you through
the tangled realness
of the weed.twisted
sky rocketed to pOIsEIdOn
the revelation.comfort
in cosmic confirmation
a star on the stage
universe understanding
self in self expression
one simple prayer
may the energies present
use me as an instrument
of their expression
watch their desires
play out in one dancing
body.here.one with the ground
of eternal return
tree.rock.star alike
watch my mission
observe my flight
constant struggle
am i destined
to be good
or just good
at being bad
is it a shadow i worship
or the light of the world
in which i find myself
imperfection at its best
my heart is always in
its place.inside my chest
it’s when it beats beyond
to try to fill the spaces
between my hands
and your eyes
that i fall
i try to write poetry
that is just for me
but find you behind
each letter.syllable
wOrd.maybe the only
poetry that is truly mine
is every sOUnd i spoke
intimately to the night
sONgs absorbed by the ears
of the ever present world
as i – parading on high –
released the love
i keep inside
sing.praise
every molecule
of air
it is the perfection of each
THING
that constantly stuns me
the reminder of the insect
the ant.spider.scuttling milipede
each does as it needs
and no more
conscious process
perfect reflection
of that fragment
the piece of me
shattered from you
i would be consumed
noTHING.the beginning
of horror
knowing animals.awAre
hOMe.interpreted wORld
loyalty of habit.assU
(me)
position.keep UsIng
to hide OWn fAte
prAIse everyTHING
out(in)to spAce
breathe.exhale
expand the air
more passionate
leap.flyIng
spring&all need me
orion waits for me
to notice.a wAVe
rolls toward me
from the distant
past
cello yields its
sOUnd
to my ear
all is
miss
I
(on)
:
here i am&awAke
each step that i
tAke
distraction
how experience
can satis(fYf)itarg
in truth i don’t of
ten fly safely
i forsake the sex
that turns hIla
perry
:
.safe sex
turns me
on
oo
it
turns me
:
warrior
woman
live :(on)
down(fall)cre
Ates bIRth
inspIre
clOWn
sOAr
devOUr
obsessed
with self
can’t yet
meditate
away
the
THING
birth
right
brings
object
less
love
of
the
EARth
endure
remain
human
future
mythic
past
real
pre
sent
grief
the
sOUrce
of OUr
spirit’s
grOWth
exIst
dare
to
sOUnd
notes
of
sONg
en
rAp
(tUre)
cAp
hEAl