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love.song to my.yang
(xx intro)
Seated side by side
sinking slowly.deeper
into
sad.sagging couch
HE puff.puff.
- passes -
dwindling joint
not looking right
knows her fingers
will be there
to receive.
SHE cannot take
her eyes off of him
tracing lines.lovingly.along
his brow.cheekbones
watching his lips
.purse.to release
a cloud of smoke.stretch
.into a crooked frown.
.i would happily
spend my life
watching this face
express itself.
-
introduction to dorm life
come on
let's.all.gather
in the hall
flicker of his profile
from halfway down
first.day of freshman
year
.who.on earth.is that?
-
fluorescent.natural
too cool for school
christmas.tree lights
shapes strung
on facing walls
in every light
his face is slightly
different
every angle reveals
higher levels of beauty
-
the eternal quest
i want to draw you
i'll believe it
when i see it
-
(days after orientation)
brief encounters
with beautiful girls
.oh man
i already lost.
HE
enters
with her roommate
the two nuzzle.close
across.atop her bed
he curls around
lotus.seated she
head.comfortably
in lap
they beam
smiling
face into face
stretch.toward each other
*kiss*
-
come with me
to his room
.the walk of shared.shame.
(nervous)
knock.knock.
knock.KNOCK
knock
come in (door opens) to shirtless
HE
hey
i just tie died
a plain.white.t
(hangs over window ledge)
i have to wait
for it to dry
so you're
walking around
shirtless
until it does?
i'm from florida
i get to be
half.naked
-
hanging out along
the dormitory.corridor
the longest.living room
so you've never
been kissed?
(embarrassed.
shakes head)
no
.and what of it?
wow
that's surprising
.why?
but SHE doesn't dare ask
& POPping uP
frolics down the row of doors
rousing two inhabitants
ONE
pokes his head out
quick.retreats.click
locks self inside
the OTHER is
friendly.perfect.SHE
to whom all girls aspire
you're
hanging out
out here?
nods of affirmation
hold on!
i'll get my camera
.i think this is the beginning
of a beautiful friendship.
-
laying
.side by side.
evaluating
- the hallucinogenic toreador -
anytime his door was open
she'd happen to peek in
Hello.
&
down they'd plop
||
right on top
of soft blue comforter
each day
finding something new
let's count the
flies.
venus de milos.
bulls.
is that
supposed
to be
jesus?
one fine day
(friend.roommate.bamf enters)
do you see
the matador?
POWER
UP
i think
.it's time.
for all
those morals
.to leave.
-
first drink
i don't care
if i get caught
i'm throwing
a party
here?
fuck.yea
okay.
SHE arrives
on time
&settles
in
.adulthood.
now
- begin -
oh man
i'm popping
your cherry.
(pours svedka
to the line)
i shouldn't do
this
(tips orange juice
rest of the way)
you're a
good girl.
sips
a corkscrew
on his bed.
.ocean of calm.
HE smirks&sings
: i'm half drunk
on the drinks
ya.mixed
.will do no harm.
-
first vape
HE loads an
- alien contraption -
transparent tube
protrudes
from conic.base
turns it on&waits
it has to
heat up
first.
okay
.patience is a virtue.
they pass the tube back
&forth
back
&forth
over soft.spoken conversation
thievery corporation
okay
it's time
to leave
SHE
devolves into
a giggling doofus
on the subway
platform.
.true or just enacted?
hey
be cool
we're in
a public space
places hand on shoulder
here
gestures with ear.bud
you've got to
hear this song
he sings.dances along
to a soul.coughing song
(very serious.deep.into her eyes)
you get the ankles
i'll get the wrists
it comes
dOWn
to this
O
-
first spoon
he lays
on top
of comforter
.pulls one side
up.over
himself
.smiles up.at her
who stands
bedside.
i'm a
burrito!
get in.
she cuddles in
.little spoon.
feels safe
inside this womb
.the long
exhale.
-
first kiss
cliché
lying side.by.side
curled round each other
tangled limbs
you are
so
beautiful
SHE turns in
&HE
turns her chin
tilts up
presses lips to.trembling.lips
you kissed me
.shock&aw.
her first.true
valentine's day
entering.again.the fray
her body.hungry.all at once.awAke
quivers.holds on to what's at stake
the sudden realization
.i was born to love.
knock on the door -
it's that girl
from the other
day?
she hides her face
(ashamed)
still nervous
to enter this.game
(quietly)
HE
comes to sit
beside.inside
the curve
her body
makes.across
his bed.
(heart catches)
.brushes back
loose strands of hair.
you met me
at a very
strange time
in my life.
-
the first cut
is the deepest
it's a never.ending
chain of first loves
- the mortal truth -
in each beginning
there's an end
-
sequence
by andres
about love
-
i dream that
she aims to be
the bloom upon
my misery
-
SHE felt like a bug
losing her virginity
the instant
HE was finished
it faded in.to memory
the sensation remains
of holding on
arms.legs wrapped 'round
a dangling.chestpack
HE turns over&moans
a woman
should come
twice
before a man
comes once
.starts to try again.
*gasp*
what am i doing
wrong?
.what am i?
-
HE eased her
into
- SEX -
.gently.slowly.
lesson by lesson
based on a timeline
he devised.
ScrAmbling.SHE.begging
to be free
insists
.protests too much.
.how do you
expect me to grow
if you won't
let me
blow?
-
.the sharp exhale.
SHE
(quick)
blows out the light
emitted from the bic
are you serious?
(sarcastic frown)
are you afraid?
(nods)
FIRE
.is my fear.
for
goodness
sake
his hand extends
to grip.tight.hers
hand holding hand
& lighter
- now -
just.flick
-
.he holds me
always at a distance
too cool.often.to even
reply.
the downward spiral
of unanswered texts.diarrhea
i may be a lot of things
but i will not be ignored
TENSION.always.TENSION
.i can't let go.
.i can't move on.
her mantras
cycle through
her racing mind
.why won't he
just let me
love him?
my masterpiece
is running in place
back&forth
back&forth
back&forth
HE
can't settle
long enough
to BE
in love
why do i keep
hitting myself with
this hammer?
because it feels
so good
when
i
-
- stop -
-
new.hardened.resolve
what kind of woman
wants this skinny kid
for a warrior
anyway
I
AM
A
strong
independent
woman
.and i just want
somebody to love.
SHE
thought for sure
she saw true love
deep.inside his eyes
- but -
i
was once
misinformed
about
your
intentions
-
the ever.present.empty threat
fuck nyu
i'm
transferring to
UF
o.no.
so our days
are numbered?
(tender frown)
yes
it's too
expensive here
uf accepted me
for free
.logical sense.
logic often finds itself at odds with
emotion
.i don't
want you
to go.
beams out
through
saddened eyes
SHE
doesn't dare
to speak.outright.her truth
&HE
(turning)
sees her
in distress -
babygirl.dollface
don't be sad
(pathetic.whimper
escapes)
crosses over to her
winds arm around thin waist
holds hand in other hand
the waltz
.123
and
123
and.
around dorm room
he sweeps her
off uncertain feet
leans in close
brushes lips to ear
sings softly
holds her
- here -
ain't no sunshine
when she's gone
.help, i'm alive
my heart keeps
beating
like a hammer.
my baby?
the agony of the unknown
summer break
draws to a close
SHE knows
the prodigal son
returns
to the city
that never sleeps
SHE hopes
that now
they'll play for keeps
(over the phone)
come here
check out
my new dorm
room
thirty minutes later
knock.knock
- open -
come in!
HE enters.eyeing.room&girl
hey!
how've
you been?
(envelopes in a hug)
i'm good.
and you?
(dramatic sigh)
i can't
believe
i'm back.
i'm glad -
you are.
SHE looks off to the side.
new roommate enters.back.from bb&b
(introductions ensue)
later that night
are you two
together?
SHE shrugs.
shakes her head.
.how to answer
that?
well
i see
the way
he looks
at you...
(heart lEAps)
.could it be?
-
stop that.
i can feel
you doing that
what?
looking at me
like that.
loving me
(embarrassed)
i'm sorry
.i'm sorry.
.i'm sorry.
-
i found
a kitten
what?
no way
yea
this little
kitten mewing
on my stoop
oh man
that's
awesome
he had a
rubber band
around
his neck
but no id
he?
yea
(sheepish smile)
i checked
that night
they return to his home
to tabby kitten on the steps
oh my word
he's perfect
new furry.friend cozies up
spreads love around
what are
you going
to name
him?
i probably
shouldn't
i don't
think i
can keep
him
but his eyes beam something yet unseen.ABSOLUTE.unconditional love
how about
...
reginald?
nice&fancy
that may
be too
fancy
HE scratches cat behind each ear
nuzzling deeper.closer.taken.
how about
reggie
for short?
mew
reggie voices his consent
it's getting
cold -
let's go
upstairs
HE lifts him with one hand
reggie.mew.briefly protests
but settles into nook of his arm
content.ascends to safety
(ashamed)
.i wish
he loved me
like that.
.a boy&his daemon.
bedtime
kitten climbs beside them both
hopping back&forth
won't settle down
one hour
two
neither
one of us
are
sleeping
what do
you want
me to do?
THE BLACK SPOT
ON HER RECORD
just take
him
outside
the next evening
he wasn't
there this
morning
or when
i got back
okay
let's walk
around
&try to
find him
.i'm sorry.
.i'm sorry.
.i'm sorry.
they circle block after block
.searching.calling.
to no avail
.if we can't
find him
he'll never
forgive me.
return to stoop.regroup.
what do
you want
to do?
(frustrated.shakes his head)
we have
to find him
(soft.not.so.distant)
mew
next door.neighbor exits his house
kitten resting over shoulder
blindly
they approach
o
hello
is he yours?
yes
he is
he was
just meowing
at my door
as he hands him over
thank you
we've been
looking all
over
(absolved of blame)
that night
the bed was.happily.crowded
weeks later
i have
to give
him away
why?
i don't
think i'm
allowed to
have a cat
&i'm not
ready for
the
responsibility
you're doing
a great job
though
i worry about
him all day
&rush home
to make sure
he's okay
that's
beautiful
i'm going to
bring him to
a shelter
i suppose
that's best
one year later
HE brought binoculars to
the stadium.graduation
SHE looks through
tries to find
her family
friends
aretha franklin
a fruitless search
she leans back in her seat
absentmindedly
picking at a red rubber.band
wound round the left.eyepiece
snAp!
why did
you do
that?
what?
it was
already
breaking
that was
the last
thing i had
from reggie
peeling the band away
that was
around
his neck
when i
found him
throwing it to the ground
what?
(panicking now)
i thought
it was green
no.
i put it
there
because
i thought
'this is
something
i will keep
for a long
time.it will
be safe there'
oh no
(agony)
why do
you do
these
things?
.it's like
picking a scab.
i'm sorry
.i'm sorry.
.i'm sorry.
-
the joint is out.the moon is up
okay
it's getting
kind of late
right
you're right
i should
get going
SHE gets up to leave
finds she cannot
.how do i leave
the boy behind
without having
to watch him go.
.but
if you just found
the strength
to walk out
he'd stay
the hell out
of your way.
at war
with herself
SHE retreats into his room
safe.for now.at home
-
housing lottery
won him a room over a bar
complete with a messy.unhappy
roommate
the endless.chatter
of the drunk.smokers
below becomes white noise
lulls each to sleep
the busy intersection
on the corner
trails squares of light
along the walls
kaleidoscope of traffic
one night
SHE is his +1
at his boss's wedding
still underage
officially
his coworkers
bring her rum&cokes
as he helps himself to
beer
conversation
beer
beautiful.ceremony
champagne.beer
boogie
beer
bathroom
beer
bOogie
beer
time to go
on the way
HE
assures again&again
that was
the perfect
amount to
drink
i'm
the perfect
amount of
drunk
back in his room
HE turns
suddenly ANGRY
slAms the bedroom door
bAngs his fists against the dresser
sTOmps his feet with force against
the hardwood floor
.alcohol
is a terrible drug.
for her part
SHE
doesn't
understand
this anger
knows
it's
coming
from a place
usually well
hidden
brought out
unnaturally
.anger
is a wasted emotion.
once
his gesticulating.aggression ends
she approaches.cautiously
envelopes him in loving arms
pat.pats a shaking back
feels tears on her bare shoulder
holds him.close.as he quakes
-
the knitting factory
to see a band he just discovered
laura stevenson and the cans
she sings her
ass off
leads the band
with grace&poise
more than holds her own
with all these boys
song after song
SHE
stands in awe
ever a lyrics.girl
taken
by the poetry
she makes
SHE
looks over at
shaggy.haired.him
who
eyes.alight
watches
the performers
on the stage
with longing
a new song begins
SHE
misses
the first
verse
to
gazing
at his
face
tunes in
in time
for
your
name is the only word
that i hear
cut your hair short
so i can see your ears
and i can know
you hear my name
hear my name
you'll be shorn and i'll be sure
teary.eyed
SHE shimmers
inside
whispers i.love.you
to the dark
profile beside
-
the jamaican shower
as the water runs
puff.puff
- pass -
puff.puff
- pass -
until it's through
after
you
smirking.gesturing past curtain
why
thank you
sir
farewell sex
has more zest
orgAsm rocks her
to her core
they break apart
to bask
.hold on.
as her vision
blurs
she gestures out to him
i'm going
to pass out
.
.
.
deep.complete.sleep
- awAke -
hey
hi?
you
fainted
ah
it's good
you
warned me
oh?
i caught
you&
gently
laid you
down
.down?
she looks around
.ew.
'cause frankly
this tub is way too
skanky
to ever sit
my bare ass down
you okay?
yes
considers his face
so close
so safe
.i'm glad
it's you
to whom
i wake.
-
winter break
return
i hate
having
a roommate
i need
to be
alone
the single
this is the room
one afternoon
i knew
i would love you
each night
SHE
curls around him
winds arm around
rests hand on heart
whispers i.love.you
as soon as
his snores set in
one morning
they wake up to the tiny square of light
the small.high window provides
SHE
rolls to rest
head in the crook
of his shoulder.armpit
nuzzles in
puts hand on heart
HE
runs his hand
along her back
sends shivers
down her spine
i love
you
HEaRt
- stops -
.starts.
oh man
i love
you too
*kiss*
i've been
wanting
to say
that
*kiss*
me too
SHE
covers her face
with both her hands
tries to contain the joy
now beaming out
each pore
SHE
turns her face
toward him
for more
summer break
parents let her jet
to sunny sands
of florida
the airplane.jitters
are more joy to see the boy
than fear of the road rising
to meet her in a fiery crash
.gravity works.
the craft lands
.safe&sound.
passengers
busy themselves
with cells&bags
SHE
reaches in hers
.giddy.
calls awaiting.him
hello!
hi!
i'm at
the
baggage
claim
okay
.oh man.
i'll come
find you
SHE
follows signs
through maze of halls
down an escalator
the view rises from below
to form feet.legs.tshirt
new close.cropped hair
hey!
head tilts up
eyes light
wide grin
SHE
hurries
to his side
HE
wraps arm
around
her shoulder
pulls close
kisses
forehead
cheek
*lips*
your smile
pressed against mine
i can't
believe
you're
here
i'm so
happy
to see
you
they walk
along&out
hand.in.hand
in stride
where to?
we're going
for a ride
impressions of florida
everything is half an hour
away by interstate
my dad
got us
a motel
room
for the first
two nights
SHE
rides.shotgun.
hand out the window
waving on the wind
.i believe
i can fly.
the car
pulls into motel
parking lot
stay here
it's under
my dad's
name
since i'm
not
technically
old enough
to rent
a room
.oofa.
okay
SHE
sits
patiently
in the hot car
foot out
the open window
HE
returns
with key
in hand
alright
let's go
opens trunk
hoists out bags
together
climb to second.story room
whoa
come look!
there's a
balcony -
HE joins SHE
to lean.stretch
over the ledge
to see straight
to the beach
shall we
go?
hell yes
sunblock application
throw snacks into a bag
spend a blissful day
floating
in each other's arms
the next morning
watch the sun rise
over the eastern.horizon
toes curling in the sand
take hits off the vape
slowly.get higher
okay
let's
go in
they enter
to majestic calm
within a school of fish
move slow into the water
careful not to disturb
those that swim
below
.nibble.nibble.
these
fucking
fish
what
are they
biting at?
- instinct -
the two
go on the defense
get off
go away
kicking at the fins&tails
fluttering around
the turn
the fish start
fighting back
.slap.
.slap.
.slap.
cooperation
fish swarm around
- attack -
repeatedly smack.smack
until they have no choice
&have to run to shore
(embarrassed)
did that
just happen?
(stunned)
yes
i think
it did
moment of silence
sitting on the blanket
well
i guess
we'll
have to
wait
a little
while
before
we go
back in
(reaches in to bag.of.chips)
i guess
so
- crunch -
look out to waves.cresting.white foam
-
karma
walk
along the shore
that night
each
start to feel
an itch
what
the fuck
is this?
we have the
technology
- research -
sea lice
the next day
they go to a store
in desperate search
of relief
this?
purchase
anti-itch spray
HE
opens to apply
once they leave the store
.frustrated.medicated.
the nozzle on the can is faulty
won't spray past his legs
fed up
HE
chucks it
at the ground
fuck this
relax
it's okay
i'm so
itchy
i know
me too
alright
(sighing)
let's just
go home
-
you
can stand
on the arms of
the Williamsburg Bridge
crying
hey man,
well
this is babylon
-
i can't
do dorms
again
i'm going
to get
my own
room
where?
bushwick
it's a
neighborhood
on the rise
how do
you know
that?
because.
i do
my research
-
HE
moves in
to a fully furnished room
with a bay.window overlooking
the corner
where.at night.tranny prostitutes
strut their stuff
across
the street.on every block.a church
on every corner
a.basic.grocery store
two doors down
a building.padlocked.condemned
three
new.classy.grey adobe digs
gentrification.in.progress
one windy night
they open the two side windows
watch the wind whip
through the drapes
in awe
inside the elements
in the corner
by the floorboard
a candle flickers
we should
take a video
yea
we should
but neither move to capture
the moment that they share
the pine of the candle
reminds of the quote
on the box in which came
love must be
as much a light
as it is a flame
-
my ONE regret
once i.finally.got you
i never knew.almost refused
to give myself
to YOU
the forecast
.batten down
the hatches :
there's a
SUPERstorm
coming.
the request
can i
sleep over
the night
before
in case
i can't
get to you
the morning
after?
of course!
the preparation
alright
let's get
groceries
&do
laundry
the night
stand on the street with two neighbors
from the house&scoff
it's just
a little
wind
at most
that piece
of siding
will fly off
the storm
sideways rain pummels
the bay window
wind howls through the trees
on higher ground than les
SHE slumbers.safer.here than lafayette
where the power.soon.would blow
the morning
wake up to sun
minor debris litters the street
.that's it?
the first reply
let's check
to see
...
HOly
shit
the internet tells the fuller story
call
'round
assuring 'rents
yes
yes
we're safe&sound
two days later
i don't
have clothes
to last
oh no
we've got
to venture
in
the odyssey
cramped.free.crowded
public bus
takes them to
the williamsburg bridge bus terminal
alright
and now
we walk
over the bridge
through.eerie.streets deserted
lower east side to bowery
...getting closer...
*chinatown*
.hOme.
blacked.out.lafayette
climb fourteen flights of.pitch.black.stairs
- at last -
dorm room
alright
plan of attack
i don't
want to
be here
any longer
than we
have to
.roger that.
grab rolling.bag
pack only the essentials
on the way down
*revelation*
the staircase with the windows
at least
we don't
have to
trip down
in the dark
roll luggage.now.through lonely streets
go back over the bridge
part of a great exodus
safe
SHE
sets suitcase
between the bed&window
it's now become quite clear
SHE intends.must.settle here
there's no place else for her to roam
.your once&future lover
has made herself
at home.
addiction
50cent coffee?
50cent coffee
two weeks spent cooped up
day.after.day the same
free bus service
crowded.scary.cramped
subways.slow.revived in time
suddenly
DEPENDENCE
on hard.wired drug
.coffee.coffee.
- b r e a t h e -
fall.deeper.in
-
catharsis
completely open.vulnerable
to those who love you
SHE
recounts
her reality
years of depression
yearning for what
she didn't know
invisible.alone
feeling
always
far from home
HE
sits across
hears every word
holds her in his gaze
.at last.
what's always trapped
inside comes bubbling up
sweet rich sobs
rolling deep like thunder
for the first time
there's someone there
to hold her as she cries
SHE
nuzzles into shoulder
dripping snot on white tshirt
i'm sorry
oh please
you have
nothing
to be
sorry for
-
are you
going to
the corna.stor'?
candy run?
candy run.
the foraging.hunter returns
sweet goods in hand
your three
musketeers,
milady.
(dramatic bowed.handoff)
&crunch bar
for me
(little boogie to the bed)
i can't get no
satisfaction
bars are opened
- the great reveal -
there is no golden ticket
instead his appears chalky.white over
brown
chocolate
crumbling to the touch
oh man
HE tries
but cannot eat it
as he tosses in trash can -
that crunch bar
was corrupted
by evil
-
the mattress
was new when HE moved in
not.quite.up to the task
it creaked&groaned
under
nightly
sexcapades
complaining
under pressure
a few months in
revelation
each side of the bed
bore the valleys
of their bodies
HE
by the door
SHE
by the window
each morning
- joy -
waking up to see
this boy
rolling to him
curving in
against
- oop -
morning.wood
good.morning
-
i love you in a.
we would make one.kickass
FU
sion
HAH!
.kind of way.
we'd be gotenks 2.0
super.SUPER.saiyon
andrison
allandon
isandes
O
si.si
candy bar run?
candy.bar run.
come back
to me?
I’ll think
about it.
-
drunken brunch
with his computer science buddies
unlimited mimosas
.what a
novel idea.
so
what are
you having?
french toast
obviously
the true test
of any brunch
the mimosas keep flowing
faster than she can count
surrounded by these boys.to.men
she senses something new
.are you making eyes at me
or am i making eyes at you?
sufficiently tipsy
satisfyingly full
they pour out.onto the street
where a light flurry starts to fall
where to?
i think
we're going
to go to
prospect park
in the snow?
(giggle)
this ain't snow
alright
well
have a lovely day
the awesome solitude
snowflakes.softly.falling
stick to lashes.lost to hair
i'm going
to climb
a tree
which?
where?
that one
(gestures)
there
SHE
watches as HE climbs
sure.footed
hand.over.hand
to rest on lowest branch
.i'd hoped that
loving him
would make me brave
i want to be the woman
he deserves to love
it seems as though i never was
it's what we've always known.
- it ain't me babe -
he's of the trees
she's of the stars
girls are from venus
boys are from mars
my weird mind wanders
&my brave heart breaks
i've nailed some milestones
&i've made mistakes
grandmotherly advice
someday
you will look at him
hating him
with every fiber
of your being
...
it will pass
O
leave me alone
no i don't wish
to taste of your insides
or to call out
your name
through my phone
for the glory boys
by your bedside
will love you
as long as
you're something
to own
-
first break up
(at the library)
HE SHE
&
sit down.sigh.together
&
this isn't
working
anymore,
is it?
(the long exhale)
i thought i
would be the one
to bring this up
.don't worry.
i'm self aware
- this time -
we ride
roller coasters
into the ocean
we feel no emotion
as
we
spiral
down
.
The internal clusterfuck develops : coils me up :
makes me unintelligible.
Ijustcan't.
Ijustcan't.
Ijustcan't.
Ijustcan't.
Ijustcan't.
Ijustcan't
...
Can I talk to you?
Just sit down.
Don't tell me
to sit down.
Fine -
When you say
I just can't :
I just want
to choke
the fucking life
out of you.
He holds my tense &
chewed.up hands
in strong.warm.beautiful his :
eyes find mine and smile.
-
laying side.by.side across
his comforter
HE catches both her hands
holds them up.palms to face
you have
beautiful
hands
really?
i've never
thought much
about them
really?
they're one
of the first
things i notice
as HE kisses palm&palm
SHE sees them
now
in a new light
-
we're going
to end class
today with
a quote &
the singing bowl
.
today's quote :
Love is that
which enables choice.
Love is always
stronger than fear.
always choose
on the basis of
LOVE
(tibetan singing bowl.ringing)
she lies perfectly still
staring.smiling.up
at the ceiling
of the studio
counting light
fixtures
her mind
.refusing.
to go blank
spinning
waiting.patiently.for
the moment
when he stirs
out of shavasana
rolls over
holds her hand
brings it.gently.to his lips
kisses its back
.she shimmers
from
his healing touch.
-
xx
plays soft.low to set the mood
&time the yoga combination
child's pose
cat&cow
downward dog
stretch right leg long
open up
left leg
open up
hop up to front
forward fold
roll up to stand
arms up to greet the sun
they face each other
call out each new move
watch the other for direction
sync to the other's breath
&f
l
o w
warrior one
exhale.into warrior two
.pressed between
two panes of glass.
inhale to flip palm to sky
reach
exhale to relaxed warrior
.reach uP before back.
they make it to the end
settle.at last.into shavasana
SHE
feigns
deep meditation
can feel him bristling beside
HE
rolls toward her
with intention
.burning.
SHE
pretends
not.yet.
to see
.yearning.
just as she turns to him
- open -
a rectangle of light
a silhouette
his roommate enters
.
.
.
cock.vagina.block
-
i love the soundtrack
to your life
that is my soundtrack
to my life
that is your soundtrack
that entangles us
hopelessly
in song&in love
-
tradition
what should
we listen to?
SHE.purrs.stretches
l o n g
across his bed
naked
you choose
HE considers her
sly.smirk across his face
i know
in only boxers
he crosses over
to laptop
selects a song
.
.
.
(familiar voice)
you came
with your faith
unshaken
good choice
i know
head tilted to one side
hands resting in waistband
HE dances over to her
singing
all i could pray
for is that
you'd please wait for
me until i am
a master of art
she drapes her arms
around his neck
&pulls him in
to that secret place
that no one dares to go
-
breaking up
is like knocking over
a coke machine
you can't do it in one push
you've got to rock it
back&forth
a few times
&then.it goes.over
rooftop BBQ
under the summer sun
the full.force of her feelings
.we are not done.
the vaccines played the soundtrack
to her week
confirming.reconfirming
what she so chose to know
if you wanna
come back
it's alright.it's alright
it's alright
if you wanna come back
to me
HE descends the stairs to apartment
below
SHE
.instinct.
follows behind
in the kitchen.HE gives a look of
SO
.what's on
your mind?
(desperate.can't express)
.i just.
each lunge
*kiss*
push up against the counters
turn round.refrigerator
against the sink
HE
lifts skirt up enough to reveal
her secret
(heavy groan)
you're wearing
my boxers
resume
melt into each other
-
SHE
picks boxers
out of the bin
with intention
bends at the waist
leaves herself open
- though new to this -
knows just how
to turn him on
HE
dances back&forth
once:picks up two shirts
twice:a pair of pants
pretends he doesn't to see
SHE
stretches tall to readjust
- yawns -
&dives back in
HE
can't resist
that bait
-
the day after the first kiss
was spent doing laundry
HE
eyes her
hungry
a row away
loading clothes
into the wash
SHE
fakes modesty
loads lacey things
demurely.inside
&now
they have to wait
:
return to his room
to cuddle on his bed
try out new spoon.positions
big spoon
big spoon
nose.to.nose
leg
thrown over
hip
a distant alarm sounds
(groan)
we have
to move
the clothes
to the driers
.already?
a new understanding
in love.time is meaningless
-
on the floor
cross.legged.across.each other
at last.in her dorm room
high.ceilinged.hallway.exposed pipes
run end.to.end
bathroom at one
a magnificent.large window
at the other
her outdoor.friend
the gargoyle
patiently.rests beside.repose
space is only noise
plays from her laptop
the morning light falls
on him.perfection.she beams out
pure affection
SHE
loses track
when looking back
can't place
just how it happened
- all.at.once -
the two are one
"
in love.space is meaningless
-
the LAST time
hold each other
with burning.eyes
move seamlessly
from shape to shape
a sacred dance
.so this is sex.
finish.together
hm.O.ah
melt in.repose
( hOld )
close.close.close
a tangle of familiar limbs
hand presses heart
nose nuzzles neck
breathe.deep.the scent
.you know.
.you'll miss.
kiss any body.part in reach
savor inch by inch
fall asleep inside this pose
wake up.one.final.morning.to the light
on soft.skin
pure love
.&then it goes.
-
I match his gaze
melt into deep orbs
that hold me :
through to the only soul
who truly knows me :
the only soul
.I truly know.
(basic space)
His snore rumbles on,
poor dear.
He is a mighty thunder
if only when he sleeps.
A rolling burp erupts
amid a fearsome snore.
Smacked lips,
shifting body & resume.
Slumber on,
oh alluring slumberer!
May the river of drool
never run dry
on the pillow of my love.
May the blizzard of your scalp
never cease its storm;
scatter flakes
to every corner of my bed.
In love,
I will find them tomorrow
&remember the passion
in your eyes
your knee.weakening,
panty.dropping smile.
I have memorized your body,
know just how
to fit mine beside you,
nuzzle in
to the precise nook of your belly,
the cranny of your knee.
I become you. And you me.
-
do you want to dance? - 22:30
-
lick.dip.lick
boogie.woogie.beat
the night away
it's HE
who introduced her
to the dance
.for that&all the rest
she's eternally grateful.
the night of house
draws to a close
( embrace )
&then part ways
as they hold
each other
.close.
their hearts
find each other
through each cage
to beat as
ONE
.
.
.
as they pull back
did you
feel that?
(eyes wide.nodding)
yes
-
sudden.heartbreaking.revelation
.i've always been
afraid
to look him
in the eye.
SHE searches.deep.desperate
.have they always
been this shade?
a mental rolodex
flies.fast.through her mind :
miracles made manifest
two becoming one
each long night
spent loving him
helping him grow
into the man she knows
she sees.to be
each other's motivating muse
too late.now.we lose
the fairytale.end
to live
happily ever after
with my best friend
by my side
.growing.aging.procreating.
isn't it pretty to think so?
.no.
scrape
these barnacles
i am whole again
finally purified
or whatever
that
means
Every single time I'm floored :
.my god.
HE's
.beautiful.
But.
I just
want you
to know
that.
.
I
love you.
The words sound wrong
.at last.not mine
to say
.
He flashes- w i d e -his
dashing grin.
eyes light up then look away.
I know.
He squares off.
registers a new resolve.
He gestures to the space between.clearing the air.
- finally -
-
WE
can be
.EQUALS.