mobius strip

is a sonnet crown

for unrequited love

- the first line of each sonnet

is the last line of the sonnet before

and the last line of the crown

is the first line -

recounts my ill.fated

attempt to force

a moment

to its crisis

i am grateful

for the poetry

all things

come

full

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love is truth.i want to sing mine out loud

to him(that HE)the star that follows nhyme

wish to stand.hold hand.head high.heart beam.prOUd.

i stubbornly persist.i sing of thee

not allowed to force.let(go)with the flow

i can be taught.promise.i yearn to learn

i’m here.a space.a home.where i can grow

pattern returns.to dance.while slowly.burn

through rabbit holes.rainbows.one dream.i chase

i trust my feet.over bridges.i roam

when there’s nothing but time.there’s only pace

i know however far.all roads lead home

beloved.my muse.whispers from the rock

[ ‘fool.put fingertips o'er keys&unlOck' ]

a child.determined.I speak my mind

slow down, babygirl.sit.breathe&take stock

I am always here.what I need I find

I want everything.now.all things begin

cocksure.i neglect the hard work inside

forgive me.beLOVEed.my life is sin

after three years( silence )wears on my pride

I smoke.create plot.when I’m afraid of

grounded forward motion.i push away

dance instead with the trees&stars above

sure as Orion.sUn heralds each day

here.now.may I be the change I wish to 

[ see.there is only me.dreaming of you ]

a mental obsession I cannot shake

felt a sensation my whole body knew

inspired by eyes.these poems I make

wiser men chide.please.abandon this hope

stubbornness runs.it’s a family trait

let go or be dragged.hold thread.not a rope

the signs tell me Relax.HERE.never late

headstrong.i forge on.blaze my wild trail

trust only the truth I know in my heart

tongue tied in person.words flow through email

determined.i finish all that I start

the turn.past the statue.one single stare

[ set the spark roaring.see that love is there ]

I’ve grown roots in that corner.meditate

beneath blossoms.sit still.patiently wait

witness the days.breathe.wonder:do I dare?

is FORCE too strong.do I dare mount the stair?

I sing&dance to the rhythm of eight

I believe one day.i’ll become my fate

keep map on hand.life.poetry is prayer

the years between.i’ve come into my own

a tale of true love could not keep away

each man.i’ve loved.who gave the touch I crave

the time approaches.to reap what I've sown

my heart&mind stayed closed to more than play

[ the thing I've learned:in love.one must be brave ]

love of oneself:the first&hardest task

much easier to hide behind a mask

it comes down to how I choose to behave

I know there’s only me that I can save

a woman with needs.Universe, I ask

the love of one man in which I can bask

two hands to hold.return the love I gave

my body of work.unread.crushing weight

story of my life.in verse.for my muse

be cool always.but I overapply

the ease of technology I abuse

I long for eyes.my words.to consummate

[ too late to turn back.now.there’s only try ]

dharma talk:to desires there’s no end

yet I wait for the unexpected bend

from every pore.my soul.to you I cry

each time I balk.stumble&wonder why

a simple start.coffee in park.a friend

instead.too strong.honest poems I send

love is freedom to spread my wings&fly

each feather.one word.chosen to express

the truth I carry in my heart each day

there’s so much beauty in the words I've read

( I know the only living thing is yes )

you didn’t always occupy my head

[ yes or no.please.you only have to say ]

what will you do if my answer is no?

beautiful.talented.determined to grow

so long as i keep working every day

now is at my fingertips.learn to play

the melody on lettered keys&sew 

the threaded tapestry of life.i know

all things come full circle on the path.way

space between.have you ever let me in?

where this attachment ends.there.i begin

each morning to sort my thoughts.i compose

one sonnet at a time.i craft this crown

am i the briar or am i the rose?

[ please.answer me.set me on solid ground ]

my feet&fingers follow my heart’s lead

humbled.i’ve only just begun to read

I return to sacred space.look around

bow to my home.open.my song.resound

‘be patient’ ‘just breathe’ warnings.never heed

all that’s left for heart&mind is believe

for every time i’m lost.i’m always found

google:tragic flaw.too forward from the

start.without your words.i would never be

with each poem.i honor whom I owe

[BEloved].i pray one day.you will see

this loud love:an endearing part of me

[ I am the poet.you.that day.did sow ]

late.awkward fumble with keys.door.sit down

in facing chairs.avoid longing stares.drown

inside.all words rise.how silence does grow

tragic flaw revealed.what does goOgle know?

multimedia art begins on ground

hand drawn.sewn chapbooks left.each to be found

beauty is beauty wherever it goes

[ one year later ] to prepare.now.i run

with this dream.in my mind.i’m never done

return.i knock.brave.sure.at new grey door

with a pirouette.open.there you are

heart stops.slowly.recount to you how far

[ I've come.heart drum.remind what lips are for ]

true.BEaUtIfUl.intellIgent.well REad

sIng.dAnce.wish.whisp(u)rr.crY oUt.yes&mOre

lOng for ( y O u ) to lOOk down& stroke my heAd

wonder:who is this smitten kitt( I )n bed

brAVe re(tUrn).flAsh ID.the Old refrain

trUst my Palladium.YellOw BrIck.RED

nothing to lose&everything to gain

find.climb.fold hope into a paper crane

here.face a door.fOndle knob.I BElieve

Grow roots.the peacock.observe.pine&leave

true faith in( yOu )as rOck.lOve.keeps me sane

integrity of action.certain.sure

[ ritual fated love brings out nature ]

i am my beloved.my BEloved's mine

an EnT speaks tree.intentions are pUre

let me tell you what i see.it seems I'm

about to meet dreams.so.i wrote this rhyme

here's the story : hey mAn.please gOd.what's yoU?

read all the signs-stars in love always shIne

each stage of my spine.brings joy.grOwth anew

through the needles.whisper.winter wind.blew

a love song pOUrs past lips.subwAy platform.

share one life.hand in mine.to keep me warm

from the seed in( y O u )i grew wings&flew

will you join me in this dance.stardust game

[ i run.the rhythm of each breath.your name ]

exhale_first.inhale~last.tortoise wins race

TREE lOver.stAr gaZer.arrow.true aim

I”M HeRe.love that extends to Outer.space

show me:what’s your ORIGINAL face?

you’re alien to me.let me be frank

unravel.unfold me.reveal my lace

I've been here before.by this riverbank

tender.feel me.supple.breathe in.skIn.spAnk

there are those I love.not my job to save

despite my heart.side.everything I gave

I want to get down.hOMe.dEEp bAss is dAnk

will you.one day.lay me on the dance floor?

[ MODERN warrior.what do you live for? ]

for.with each one i love.make a grave

mistake.all for ONE.from ALL withhold

it weighs on me.i am a bad friend

i shut down&out.reject the mold

in my life.there's bounty.all you gave

what will unfold now.love.to forgive

the mountain i carry.return.wave

open.what was lost.at times.too bold

the fool perpetuates lonely trend

head down.breathe.work.the core.heart of gold

be true.empty.fortune favors brave

perform or act.story the stone told

chin up.smile.with love.light.I'll mend

in wonderland.it is no surprise

[ too easy to fall.from ashes.rIse ]

this gift is yours.if you will have it
but now i need to practice.perform
will you let me unroll.ravel.learn
sound.baptism.found in every storm
manifest hope.light wick.just the tip
beauty.experience.makes me wise
fly like a fairy.i float&flit
flags hang in window.old.home.dorm
i take leaps.arms that hold.here's your turn
same old story.fall in love.be the norm
heaven in details.pieces that fit

to have warm breath between parted thighs

tongue trace.each line.every pore&bit
vote with feet.one day.meet @ the cell

[ soft spoken words.endless things to tell ]

I confess.i do not always choose

the responsible.enlightened way

I am twenty four.child.human

I play this game-check in:still okay

last night.journey home.drunk.too much booze

have I no self control( woman )fell

‘tween lavender sheets.on bed of fools

sleep soundly.sweet Sylvia.each day

new start.breathe.yoga with Adriene*

ease into sonnet.honesty.play

confident.grounded.use all the tools

consummate.marry heaven&hell

let go.question-lollipop/noose?^

poetry.art.work.I am here.real

[ even cease.desist.show how you feel ]

'llison Sylvia Fichtelberg
follow feet.path the way you came
the turn.from stat( y O u )&her__( me )
too.fear.there's no one to blame
O word.i am the mockingbird
tell it to me straight.what's the deal
love me or not.the wait.absurd
meet me at the place.my heart sang
perfect smile.beam blue( I )see
what will begin.first kiss.the rain
the music swells.what the wind heard
today:live(hero)ic couplet
habit.all the eggs.one basket
time is now.uplift hazy shroud
love is.want to sing mine out loud

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