aDan

(1)

for

( yOu )

what a

beautiful night

to make you hear

poetry (2)

[becoming]

(stumbling.to.stANd)

get hot

getting close

to the flames

wild, open space

talk like an open book (3)

the words themselves beating (4)

it's better to burn out

than to fade away (5)

i can feel it in my bones

gimme empathy (3)

'cos i'm young,

i won't let it go

believe in

the tongue (6)

i think it burns

my sense of truth

to hear me

shouting

at my youth (7)

TEKIA (8)

the trumpet

of a prophecy! (9)

i bellOw

to gOd that

i don't give a

FUCK

& by that

i mean i give

so much of a fuck

that the fuck i give

consumes me (10)

young girl

what has

DESIRE

done

to you? (11)

i don't

mind

worry

following me

like a dinosaur (12)

& the apes

climbed down

from the trees (13)

i don't

fear

i am

descending

into the molten

cOre (12)

grew tall

&started

talking (13)

where will you be

when you're backed up

against the wall (14)

hands up

don't shoot (15)

do not settle

for letting

these waves settle

&for the dust

to collect

in your veins (16)

tell me to breathe (17)

there once was a time

when we knew

damn well

we were wise

beyond our years (18)

be not afraid

it's just a

game (19)

FREEDOM

IS MINE

&i know how i feel (20)

nothing you can say

can stop me

going home (21)

YOP

(22)

after i die,

i'll re-awake

redefine

what was at stake

from the hindsight

of a god (7)

one promise: when

i get to the bottom

i'll accelerate deeper

my small pile of poems

surprising everyone

along the open wound (23)

my brother & my sister

don't speak to me

well i don't blame them

well i don't blame them (24)

surely in isolation

one

becomes

a god (25)

my weird mind

wanders

& my

( brAve )

heart

breaks (26)

DESTINY

fall dOWn

wIpe away

my past

mistakes (27)

learned

from them

my god (28)

you're not

a god?(29)

i learned

from them (28)

you lied to me? (29)

to err is human (30)

how dAre you! (29)

time to turn back

& descend the stair

it's time to become

unreasonable (31)

but

i'm

no wiser

than the fool

that i was before (32)

shake the dust

&take me with you

when you do (16)

are there still

as once

there were

songs

to be sung (33)

my hands

are high &

(i'm holding) on,

( " ) out &

i (figure that i)

( " )

just might make

it & (34)

i will float

until i learn

how to swim (35)

got to keep it

(all in line)

( " )

(36)

in every place

a 'you'

in every sense

obscured

suddenly lit

up. burning. (37)

venturing

into the sun

to smoke

i am proof

of nature

&all its

declarations (38)

only one

knows one-

self not

the music

at hand that

of a bird

or bard

in flight (39)

spread

your wings

& take to the sky (40)

&it felt just like

an angel that came (41)

go home

leave this

broken spirit

behind (42)

talk to me

&watch me crumble (43)

like a magic light

like a little flame (41)

&when you stumble

you shine (44)

gonna be myself

right for falling (6)

one of these mornings

you're gonna rise up (40)

i summon you

to be

at all times

in all places (33)

singing (40)

.all.is.on.

[being]

someBODY

with a

body

does

my sexiness

upset you? (45)

you may be right

i may be crazy (46)

how the sun child

loves the lunatic (47)

. t h u s .

your opposing pair

becomes

one

in the meaning (11)

prepare to live

with no regrets

ride

your

adrenaline

your

impossible

dream (48)

all gods reside

in the human breast (49)

children of eden

your bliss is at stake (48)

&the stars

fell out of the sky

&my tears

rolled into

the ocean (13)

pools of sorrow

waves of joy

are drifting through

my open mind (50)

&now i'm

looking

for a reason

why (13)

i am perfect (51)

you even

set my world

into motion (13)

you are perfect (51)

in this life like weeds

trees need us

to grieve (52)

because we suffer (51)

now

i'm filled

to the top

with fear

that it's all

just a bunch

of matter (13)

the earth has

her own means

of dealing with

unbearable

pressure (53)

NATURE REGULATE US!

nature REGULATE us

nature regulate us (54)

i don't even

know how to

take care

of myself yet (55)

i feel a change

like the land

when spring

is coming (53)

O Wind,

if Winter comes

can Spring be

far fORwARd (9)

i said it's

hot outside

let me go

swimming

in your eyes (56)

suddenly i see

why the hell

this means

so much

to me (57)

come

let's bring

light

to the night

of day (58)

trois jours

et je vous

donne un monde

a vous qui n'avez

plus d'espoir (59)

in pursuit

of magic (60)

whenever i speak

directly in the ear of the sky,

it's you

i'm thinking of (61)

i love you,

( jesus christ )

i love you, yes i do (62)

only hymns upon your lips

a mystic wisdom

rising with them

to shore (63)

love

always

hunted

but

your

ArrOws.

.are sOAring.

through my chest (64)

&now you know,

the less you give (36)

because

you're mine

i walk the line (65)

the more i pull

the more i wish (36)

consume my wine

consume my mind (63)

i borrow your light,

to paint

BEAUTY

with blind dances

in darkness (47)

tell me please

all is forgiven (63)

i give it all

to the sky

never making

( you )

mine (44)

&yOu

BElieve

something

i can't define (43)

&the words repeat

breath in histories

into stories untold

but i unfold (34)

one

does not

possess

we are told

one

gives (66)

her

watercoloRED.ragged

wings

were

born

broken

but

complete (67)

music keeps me

spirited (36)

( you )

wanna

Dance (68)

because i must (69)

under the

moonlight? (68)

does it come

as a surprise

that i dance

like i've got

diamonds

at the meeting

of my thighs? (45)

i know you don't

get a chance

to take a break

this often (70)

holy tits

batman

it's a

dance

erection (71)

i know your life

is speeding&it isn't stopping (70)

it's a rocking body rocking

to the body rocking beat (71)

[clap if you believe in fairies] (72)

* lose yourself to dance *

(70)

* 8 *

this

sOUnd is

the twinge

of my

blood (11)

become

the one

you long

to be (11)

limitless

undying love

surrounds me

like a million suns (50)

i am perfect

you are perfect

because we

love (51)

.all.is.one.

love

love (73)

it's such a

relief to sing

the word (74)

true love

wherever

you might be

listen to me (75)

i got a feeling

we are gonna win (76)

rejoicing.destined

for this age (74)

our bodies

make it perfect (76)

first.turn to me (77)

&your eyes can

make me swim (76)

my warrior.my muse (74)

though i cannot see

how you move

your wings (67)

still lost.i keep

this mortal hope (74/78)

& from above you

how i sank

into your soul (79)

then again

everything

seems

new (76)

the space

between

tongue&roof (74)

to say the least

i'm into you (76)

i find it

harder to

ignore (76)

what i want,

you've got

but it might be

hard to handle (80)

love is telepathic (81)

& our eYes . (76)

tragic

the way

i feel (82)

how long

until

( y O u )

drink me up

again (83)

this dream

pays for its

space in

my heart (84)

i can hear

a rhythm start (76)

each embrace

faith or surrender (85)

& yes

i say

yes i will

Yes (86)

f o o l (74)

holding you --

never be alone (87)

i never learn (74)

kissing (you) tell me

i belong (87)

here is

my hand (74)

do you trust me? (88)

i pledge allegiance (89)

to your heart

come place

( y o u r s )

beside mine

will you let me

write you
poetry? (74)

please.please.please (90)

this time

say

yes

(74)

* I had a list of all the quotes I used on my Macbook - which unfortunately died after five beautiful years of poetry - before I had saved everything on an external hard drive. Some things are not easily Googlable and their source presently escapes my memory. I will be foraging my library to correct this - if you can help me identify anything I have numbered but not annotated that would be greatly appreciated.

thank you for taking the time to consider my poetry

(Mahmoud Darwish)

edon - (Albanian) loved; (Celtic) little fire http://www.babynamespedia.com/meaning/Edon/m ; adan - the one who brings pleasure http://babynames.merschat.com/index.cgi?function=View&bn_key=85584; http://quranicnames.com/adan
CA Conrad
Metric 'Gimme Sympathy' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jq3-wZs64n4
consider the community mind of google https://www.google.com/webhp?sourceid=chrome-instant&ion=1&espv=2&ie=UTF-8#q=the%20words%20themselves%20beating
from a street side open air gallery which featured in 'Ode to the Brooklyn Earn' http://www.allisonsylvia.com/ode-to-the-brooklyn-earn/
Chet Faker 'Everything I Wanted' https://soundcloud.com/tipotheus/bonobo-nicolas-jaar-chet-faker
Robert Delong 'Global Concepts' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B2r_-biU4sc
I would begin my performance of 'THE GREAT OSCILLATION' by blowing the shofar.scroll.manifesto https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wk-ue8csVNg
Percy Shelley 'Ode to the West Wind' http://www.poets.org/poetsorg/poem/ode-west-wind
George Watsky 'Go Big, Young Friends' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vrs9Jl3fvpM
Mahmoud Darwish 'Mural' https://www.facebook.com/notes/%D9%85%D8%AD%D9%85%D9%88%D8%AF-%D8%AF%D8%B1%D9%88%D9%8A%D8%B4-mahmoud-darwish/mural-by-mahmoud-darwish/165009908844
Soul Coughing 'So Far I Have Not Found the Science' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtCGkDZLhIU
Sam Sparro 'Black and Gold' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eHuebHTD-lY
Red Eye Empire 'Stumble' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=78jfkNXN0ho - together it feels so right
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hands_up,_don%27t_shoot
Anis Mojgani 'Shake the Dust' https://vimeo.com/9527194 - the poem that says it all
[CA Conrad] http://www.theguardian.com/us-news/video/2014/dec/04/i-cant-breathe-eric-garner-chokehold-death-video
Mount Moon 'You Don't Know' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ajdgzE7n5F4 [http://jazzcasual.supermassive.biz/]
Robert Delong 'Religious Views' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6laA_ilUDM4
Nina Simone 'Feeling Good' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D5Y11hwjMNs
My Chemical Romance 'Famous Last Words' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bbTtPL1jRs
Dr. Seuss' Horton Hears a Who https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5qHOIn99FsU - we need every voice
CA Conrad
James Blake 'I Never Learnt to Share' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b1PYy3fELpY
William Carlos Williams Spring and All
Rives 'Kite' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZsmneEtdWU
Marques Toliver 'White Sails' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RzBM34cEyUU
i learned from them my god
Road to El Dorado - Miguel&(Tulio)&Miguel : mighty&powerful gods
http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/to_err_is_human
T.S. Eliot 'The Lovesong of J Alfred Prufrock' http://www.bartleby.com/198/1.html
Paolo Nutini 'Last Request' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ffJ8xcfqOX0
Michael Kelleher To Be Sung 'In Dark Time'
Jason Mraz 'Unfold' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8U2IPghCY0
Neutral Milk Hotel 'King of Carrot Flowers, Pts 2&3' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jgNvzc-ZdME
Chet Faker 'Love & Feeling' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EJajIrujYBI
suddenly lit up.burning
Ariana Reines; CA Conrad (Soma)tic Poetry Rituals http://somaticpoetryexercises.blogspot.com/2011/12/67-cormorant-stagecraft.html
Michael Kelleher To Be Sung 'Escapism'
Lady Day 'Summertime' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uYUqbnk7tCY
Nicolas Jaar 'Winter Rose' https://soundcloud.com/tipotheus/bonobo-nicolas-jaar-chet-faker
CA Conrad ECODEVIANCE: (Soma)tics for the Future Wilderness 'Restoration Fiber Song'
Disclosure feat. London Grammar 'Help Me Lose My Mind' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fptml7Dgp4E
Andrew Kalleen 'Your Only Disease' https://soundcloud.com/theandrewartist/your-only-disease
Maya Angelou 'Still I Rise' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vXCHKWFmU2s
Billy Joel 'You May Be Right' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jo9t5XK0FhA
Kelly Noll 'How the Sun Child Loves the Lunatic' -
She danced on moon strings, a sacred Lunatic.
Wielding the borrowed light she managed to keep alive with ecstasy breathe, and the spider webs born from her mania-eyes.
Her mind devoured and created her, stole her away and grounded her in constant stagnant motion, in impossible coagulation:
it was an irony that made every laugh and cry necessary for her to find her footing.
She was born blind, and divided against herself: sliced in two (black and white selves) by a violet light of symmetry.
She is Love and Lunacy chasing a fleeting Understanding (a union bound to Divine clarity).
Her voice was contained inside an automatic music box she carried in her rose stained fingers. It never sounded the same (though it moved in the same collection of patterns).
She scribbled broken infinity webs across her learning paper.
He came to her in one peace, fire dancing in his hands,
He examined beneath the folds of the pink silk that protected her missing eyes.
(He was a soft, empathetic instinct.
She was a hard, primal intuition.)
Do you see anything in the voids? She says,
I do. He says,
What do you see?
Love and Fear. And the infinite Light web caused by the tension between them .
Anything else?
All that relatively apply.
Oh...do you think that is Good? How are the Love and Fear treating one another?
They seem to be spiraling towards the same thing, trying to devour the point that unites them. They are trying to devour the Sacrifice.
What does the Sacrifice look like?
A mirror divided against itself labeled “I” and “You”. The Fear is gnawing at both sides, while the Love is trying to swallow the I into its mouth, bending the Light to spiral from the I into the You.
That is interesting.
And also somewhat dangerous.
I have a headache, lend me your eyes.
She touches his cheekbones, then softly kisses his eyelids,
Drinking the thoughts that danced from them like watercolor holograms.
The noises stopped, she sighed.
Yes, because I can hear them, he sighed.
Her smile slightly deflated with guilt,
It only hurts if you don't see them move all at once, you have to see the whole picture. Don't trap any part against the others. Each part means because of the whole picture. Without sight of the whole picture, you will hurt. You can only know the Love if you see how it talks to Fear....
The violet light warped violently towards her black side, causing instant amnesia.
She tilted her head (with innocent inquisition).
Her posture was now somehow less alive, the warmth in her voice swallowed by a jaded charm.
Where am I? Hello, who are you?
His lips fought tight trembling and managed to smile with sigh. (He'd always known her to always forget, to constantly remember.)
You came from the moon, and I from the sun. You borrow Our Light, to paint Beauty with blind dances in darkness. We witness the nature of Our Light when it is woven with Wise-Faith at night. When your mind cries or laughs itself into mania, you find me to drink my vision and I bear your headaches. (and inside himself he whispered) “Because I adore, the way your mind bleeds into your heart-beauty...”
Of course! She chirped.
She kisses the middle of his forehead, leaving a stain. Then flies upward, with awkward grace, into the Ocean Sky where they first found each other.
He let her go, desperately trying to assimilate apathy.
CA Conrad http://www.thethepoetry.com/2014/09/infoxicated-corner-political-poetry-by-ca-conrad/
William Blake Marriage of Heaven and Hell http://www.levity.com/alchemy/blake_ma.html
The Beatles 'Across the Universe' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tjq9LmSO1eI
i am perfect&you are perfect
Modest Mouse 'Life Like Weeds' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o3QeEvgMG1s; Malidoma Patrice Some The Healing Wisdom of Africa - '...nature cannot ignore the wounds that humans inflict on one another and on her...Shedding our own tears of grief for the violence done to nature and for the alienation and losses we have experienced in our lives will open the doors to healing...for nature is our first home'
Tamara Pierce Lioness Rampant
CA Conrad
I don't even know
The Dirty Heads feat. Rome (Sublime) 'Lay Me Down' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cP08d4ruZ0g
KT Tunstall 'Suddenly I See' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-HtOcZcr9Yc
Bonobo feat. Bajka 'Nightlite' https://soundcloud.com/tipotheus/bonobo-nicolas-jaar-chet-faker
Nicolas Jaar 'Colomb' http://www.metrolyrics.com/colomb-lyrics-nicolas-jaar.html - &I will give you a world
sidewalk street art - featured in 'Ode to the Brooklyn Earn'
Chase Twichell 'To the Reader: Twilight' http://www.theparisreview.org/blog/2014/02/25/chase-twichells-to-the-reader-twilight/
Neutral Milk Hotel ' King of Carrot Flowers: Pts 2&3' - seeing Neutral Milk Hotel in Prospect Park was the most religious experience I have had to date - I shared it with the greatest man I know - jesus christ i love you
Spring Awakening 'Touch Me' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tDtc9ZoQLmw
Disclosure 'You&Me' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_zPlr-o-YEQ
Johnny Cash 'Walk the Line' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xObSJWIWui0
one gives
Kelly Noll 'Their Time' -
Phase 5
His eyes swallowed every hourglass she threw at him;
She wanted him to see Time, and name the colors.
She was born blind,
(though she could aim well with an accidental precision)
He named her Primal-Intuition.
So she painted her glass heart, and threw it between his eyes.
He caught it between his affectionate blue, soft, fire that danced like water breath from his fingertips.
He named her heart Yellow.
She laughed, delighted by his sounds: the Truth that played under their-language.
Always eager to see with new-again senses, he had a pure kind of power that she envied,
and adored.
Her nerve-webs always electrified at his Listening.
She wanted to cast her trembling lavender blood into the warm swirling scorpion mouth of his chest,
but,
she is a child of Chaos: a blind and curious conductor of a shape-shifting electricity.
(She pleads her watercolored, ragged wings were born broken but complete)
And he,
tends to his soft, metal wings with such silver command and diligence.
(Though she cannot see how he moves his wings, she can feel it in the swollen spaces alive between them)
So she throws her volatile rose fingers behind her back, to protect him (from her touch).
They tremble from the tension.
Bette Midler 'Do You Wanna Dance?' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ffUZtx9YqHs
The Red Shoes - 'Why do you want to dance?' 'Why do you want to live?' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_n4CKeHHbU0
Daft Punk 'Lose Yourself to Dance' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XF4TZSZQ5HM - this is the first song to which I truly danced
Ten Nocturnes in B# http://www.allisonsylvia.com/ten-nocturnes-in-b/
that's where I'll always love you - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=98ujKSS3ppM; https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j_B-Z-AV41g
The Beatles 'All You Need is Love' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZLcC0os5ZR0
Gail Levine Ella Enchanted 'it's such a relief' the underlying golden thread http://www.goodreads.com/quotes/319729-the-way-it-is-there-s-a-thread-you-follow-it - he who woke me
Bull Kelp Painting & Drawing 'I Ain't Giving Up On You' http://bullkelp.bandcamp.com/track/i-aint-givin-up-on-you
Chet Faker 'I'm Into You' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DuX2MkflGYs
Bernadette Mayer 'First Turn to Me' http://www.poets.org/poetsorg/poem/first-turn-me
i wanna hold your hand https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=46_yYR6tGOI
Neutral Milk Hotel 'King of Carrot Flowers, Part 1' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SM3Z3-JzEGM - this is the room one afternoon i knew i would love you
Hall & Oates 'You Make My Dreams Come True'; 500 Days of Summer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8tJoIaXZ0rw
sticker street art - black words on a red sticker - one sticker stuck to a curb has been rubbed raw from passersby - it is now red words on a white sticker
Marques Toliver 'Magic Look' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yuUBQntkacg - there can be no substitute for what's before me
Emma Dines Split Light
this dream pays for its space
faith or surrender
James Joyce Ulysses 'Penelope.Molly's Solliloquy'
Chet Faker 'Archangel' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGKNKf7ebDQ
do you? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kkwMEwenaQQ
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pledge_of_Allegiance
The Smiths 'Please,Please,Please Let Me Get What I Want' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GiqOsKngc-c

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